When we are together, my Dark Star, it is sweetness. The King and the Queen in service of one another. Two primals in fierce hunger meeting. Two lovers in tender wonder. The Priest & Priestess in their calling.
His world without me includes BDSM porn, collared slaves, guiding erotic journeys of pain, tears & surrender, not because he wants their pain but because they need it. Yet, I sense he needs their energy. That it sources him in some way.
This I can empathize with. I have a Vampire inside. An amoral part of me that feeds on the energy of others. A part of me not to be denied but integrated. In ally relationship & in service of the Priestess.
When I am a Priestess, a counselor, a shaman, I too am the guide. Holding lightly what I think I know so that I can empower the seeker to come home to their truth & empowerment. I wonder how BDSM can be used for this?
So many in the Sex Positive Scene (Tantra, Poly, BDSM, other) seem to have a capacity for erotic play and a desire for variety that does not exist in me. Or if it does, I have judged it, suppressed it, and sent it packing. Or perhaps I am not "wired" that way.
Since I was a young girl I did not like "Spin The Bottle." I only wanted to kiss or connect to someone with whom I felt a true spark.
As a Priestess I have learned to generate that spark of love for each human being. However, I love to share the very best of me with my precious beloved. I desire that he know I reserve the fullness of me, for him.
I am having visions of The Temple swathed in dark silks and velvets, with touches of burgundy. Resonant bells are rung, and low chanting begins. Each supplicant sets an intention. Each Priest/ess prayers for guidance. "What do you seek?" "What is your offering?" each is asked.
In the Temple of Dark Eros, the arts of Power, Surrender, & Sensation used for trance, invocation, vision quest, movement of energy, offering, and healing.
Does anyone see what I see?
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